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BPC-157 for gut

IBS

Of the 21 unique stories with a clear outcome, 16 reported it helped (76%). 1 were inconclusive.

These are public YouTube testimonials, not clinical evidence. People who tried BPC-157 and got no result rarely post videos — read this as a sample of the positive end of the distribution.

Verdict
76
% positive
14 helped2 partial5 no help1 unclear
What people tried
20 units twice a day subcutaneously oral administration of BPC-157 oral form unknown
Source
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YouTubeHelped · complete20 units twice a day subcutaneouslyover 2 weeks
I've had absolutely zero issues with my stomach
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YouTubeHelped · completeoral administration of BPC-157over 4 weeks
it completely healed my stomach in 4 weeks
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YouTubeHelped · significantover few weeks
clients with years of IBS symptoms begin to normalize their digestion in just a few weeks
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@thatguyharrison7922
Been taking it for 2 weeks oral form now and my taste has come back which I lost back in 2021 from covid and my ibs stomach issues feel much better and im less bloated
YouTube commentHelped · significantoral formover 2 weeks
my ibs stomach issues feel much better
@thatguyharrison7922·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@swansmeister
I actually saw a vid about a guy taking bpc-157 for 2 weeks and he was talking about what he was feeling and talking about the negative(s) and positives, not sure if he injected it or took it orally but his findings were that it reduced pain from the injuries he had on his shoulder and mostly said that his ibs he was struggling with was completely gone. I don't listen to these neuroscientists and doctors because they all know nothing about it, nobody does because it's only been tested on rats. I trust people who have taken it themselves and all who have taken it say it works, now you could argue they are just payed to promote it but I have good intuition in these kinda things and the ones I know who took it and spoke about it were truthful. The product does what it saz it will do, the only downside I heard about (short term) is headaches, from light to heavier ones depending from day to day. I am willing to try it and will do so, I have a shoulder injury and just in general get injuries with even the least I do in the gym whilst before I could dig deeper than anybody else and never gotten an injury, I am turning 40 so maybe this has something to do with it but thats the reason I wanna take it, to see if I can go all out like I used to do without feeling pain after or getting injuries, injuries like shoulder pain, tendinitis ect. I also have bowl and stomach problems which is also a good reason for me t try it because it seems to really help in that area also. I am pretty sure bpc-157 is legit and will find out soon myself.
YouTube commentHelped · completeunknownover 2 weeks
his ibs he was struggling with was completely gone
@swansmeister·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@macaw172
So after I left the army in 2009 I have never had a solid bowel movement. Life kind of sucked as I had to go often, on road trips I felt like I was stopping at every gas station, no amount of fiber helped. But about 6 months ago I tried BPC-157 to help with a tendon injury. About two weeks in I had to go and forgive my descriptiveness but to my surprise it was a log. I wasn't having to go 7 times a day and just felt better. This peptide has been life changing.
YouTube commentHelped · completeover 2 weeks
I had to go and it was a log
@macaw172·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@SconHeadVideos
You’re a likeable and honest fella, i’ve subscribed brotha 🤙 May I ask your opinion on peptide sciences and limitless peptides? They both seem to be reputable companies. I also have IBS , (mainly bloating and diarrhea) so it’s awesome to hear how it has helped with that too! Keep it up 💪
YouTube commentHelped · mild
it has helped with that too!
@SconHeadVideos·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@TheHare-rv3hj
I'm glad to hear this has fixed your IBS. I made the massive mistake of taking Toradol (a prescription strength Ibuprophen) through IV. It completely ruined my intestinal environment. I went through a 2.5 day IBS spasm that was nothing but suffering. I'm f'ing jaundiced and my urine is dark (liver). I've ordered a low dose, slow release BPC 157. And am going to try it. I am also trying to heal my gut environment ayurvedially (probiotics and prebiotic tea) and am eating a very bland no gluten/no casein diet for now. If I don't die in the mean time, I'll try and update on my progress. DO NOT TAKE TORADOL, PEOPLE. DON'T DO IT. DO NOT TAKE TORADOL.
YouTube commentHelped · complete
has fixed your IBS
@TheHare-rv3hj·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@Leec_1972
Im on 2 weeks and 3 days for a shoulder impingement, RC strain which has plagued me for months. Been taking BPC 157 now for just over 2 weeks and stopped working out. The pain and range of motion has definitely impproved although it is hard to say if it is as a result of just not working out or a combination of that and taking the peptide. Aso suffer from some kind of IBS symptoms and always have to varying degrees of severity, never diagnosed however. This appears to have gotten significantly better which is nice. I was tempted to stay on BPC 157 as a prevenative measure, however in my research there appears to be a concern that this could lead to the growth of cancerous tumours which rely on a steady blood flow to grow, which is pretty much what BPC 157 does. It proliferates the creation of new blood vessls, repairs and increass existing ones and stimulates blood flow.
YouTube commentHelped · significantover 2 weeks
IBS symptoms have gotten significantly better
@Leec_1972·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@wintersunllc
The first effect my 93yo father repoeted was that he was once again having regular, daily bowel movements. He has been able to skip his pain pills multiple days, with a 4 day record in a very long time. I started him at 0.1 mg of each and increased daily by 0.1mg. until qe got to 0.8mg daily until we finished the first 10mg of each. He wanted to continue, so i ordered him more. He has been doing 1mg of each daily for about 7 days and reported that his overall pain level has decreased by 33%. He is one of these old stoic depression era man's men so for him to say it decreased at all is a tremendous thing. He is going to continue with another 10mg of each at the same daily dose. Bill, what are your doses?
YouTube commentHelped · complete0.1-1mg daily
having regular, daily bowel movements
@wintersunllc·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@JimmyCarterAkaBrandon
Oral bpc changed my life it healed my brain and gut, years of brain fog and ibs gone after a month. Never had a single negative side effect. There’s a lot of human studies.
YouTube commentHelped · completeoralover 4 weeks
years of... ibs gone after a month
@JimmyCarterAkaBrandon·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@gwag22
I took it orally for my IBS and it competely healed my stomach in 4 weeks, now running it for another 4 and i'll quit. First 1-2 weeks my stomach issues got worse before getting better (not sure why)
YouTube commentHelped · completeorallyover 4 weeks
completely healed my stomach
@gwag22·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
r/Biohackers · Post
@Samclegg123
My Biohacking Protocol!!! 1-Year Difference: Tackling Acne, Redness, and Inflammation
I’ve spent over a decade fighting my skin since 2012. I’ve tried almost every topical and every extreme diet under the sun with zero long-term success. Accutane is likely the only thing that would have actually fixed this permanently prior, but I’ve built this current stack to address the gut-skin axis and oil production from a high-level biological standpoint. The "before" picture you see isn't even the worst my skin has been. # Current Active Protocol (What I am doing NOW) **1. Current Topical & Mechanical Regimen** * **Winlevi (2x daily):** Topical androgen blocker (this actually *works* for my oil control). * **Tazarotene:** High-potency retinoid (Just made the switch to this after 5 years on Tretinoin). * **Azelaic Acid:** Antibacterial and pigment control. * **Ketoconazole Shampoo:** Used as a face wash for oil/fungal management. * **Microneedling (1mm–2.5mm):** At-home sessions for acne scars. * **Plant-Based Exosomes:** Used post-needling (plant-based to avoid potential prions). **2. Injectables & In-Office** * **KPV (0.33mg daily):** Systemic anti-inflammatory peptide injection. * **GHK-Cu (2mg daily):** Copper peptide injection for acne scar remodeling. * **Micro-Botox:** Intradermal and intramuscular for direct oil/sebum control. * **Polynucleotides:** 4x Salmon Sperm DNA treatments for cellular regeneration. * **Red Light Therapy:** Regular sessions. **3. Oral Peptide & Gut Repair Stack - I have IBS (Daily)** * **Larazotide (500mg):** Tight junction regulation. * **Pentadecapeptide / BPC-157 (1000mg):** Gastric mucosal and systemic repair. * **KPV MSH 11-13 Fragment (500mg):** Intestinal anti-inflammatory. * **Tributyrin (400mg):** Bioavailable butyrate. * **Zinc L-Carnosine (150mg):** Gastric lining structural support. * **Lactoferrin (250mg):** Iron-sequestering antimicrobial. * **Probiotic S. Boulardii:** Pathogen-fighting yeast. * **Sodium Bicarbonate (166mg):** Acid buffer for oral peptide stability. **4. Oral Supplements (Daily)** * **Vitamin B5 (2g - 9g since June 2025):** High-dose for lipid metabolism / oil control. * **Vitamin A (10,000 IU):** Internal retinoid support. * **Vitamin D3 (5700 IU) + K2:** Immune modulation. * **Astaxanthin (16mg):** Antioxidant. * **NAC (Standard dose):** Liver/detox support. * **Magnesium (100mg):** Cortisol support. * **Quercetin (200mg):** Mast cell stabilizer. * **Green Tea Extract (315mg):** EGCG for oil suppression. * **Herbals:** Turmeric, Boswellia, Black Seed Oil (couple of drops), Cod Liver Oil. * **Bovine Collagen (5g):** Structural support. **Health, Diet & Lifestyle Foundation:** * **Sobriety:** 14 months sober. * **Sleep:** 7-9 hours per night. * **Stress:** This is the primary obstacle; chronic, high-level stress/cortisol all day long :(. * **Diet Context:** 10 years of intense trial and error (100% clean modified AIP, Dairy-free, Sugar-free, Gluten-free, Seed oil-free, Low PUFA, Keto, Carnivore, Ray Peat, Vegan). None of them moved the needle on my skin. I have now transitioned to a **balanced diet** (living a little!) that includes junk food. I recently had a post-holiday binge with no major skin consequences. * **Sunscreen**: SPF 50 daily (been doing this since I was a teen). **Failed History:** * **Topicals & Actives:** Benzoyl Peroxide, Salicylic Acid, Tretinoin (used for 5 years before switching), Adapalene, AHAs, Niacinamide, Sulphur 10% face wash, Topical Spironolactone, Topical Antibiotics, Topical Steroids, Ivermectin, Rosehip Seed Oil, 5β-Scymnol, Topical Peptides, Oral Antibiotics, and the "Caveman" routine. ALL TAKEN / USED for at least 3 months. * **Procedures:** AviClear (2023) x4 and multiple Chemical Peels (2024) both failed. **TL;DR / Conclusion:** I’ve done a crap ton of treatments and am currently running a very expensive, tricky routine to manage my chronic inflammation. I genuinely feel this inflammation is driven by a few root causes: * **My Nervous System:** I feel like I am an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) and likely neurodivergent (I just feel like a fish out of water in the modern Western world). * **Missing my Appendix:** Which permanently alters and impacts the gut microbiome. * **Genetics.** Accutane probably would be the easier and better option, but I am stubborn. I had a terrible experience with dermatologists throwing oral antibiotics at me in 2022 (causing terrible symptoms), and I absolutely refuse to ruin my gut health any further. Anyone who wants to follow an honest biohacking journey can see more on my TikTok - MagmaFace (purely as a case study).
Reddit · r/BiohackersHelped · significantPentadecapeptide / BPC-157 (1000mg) oral
gut repair stack
@Samclegg123·Reddit UserSource ↗
r/Biohackers · Comment
@FissileAlarm
That's a huge improvement. Great that you found a solution! I've had bad skin, especially in my face but also in my ears (with lots of ear infections as a consequence followed by antibiotics) for about 10 years. I went to several doctors but all they did was treating symptons. They never looked for a cause. Over 13 months ago, I started Mounjaro and I also started reading books about healthy eating and health in general. With the addiction gone, I could change my eating habits completely based on pure knowledge without mental pressure from an addiction. After some months of experimenting, I found the cause of 10 years of misery: milk protein. Quitting milk protein fixed my eczema, rosacea (and also my IBS) in about a week. It's unbelievable how often milk powder is added in UPFs, and in how much food it's added. Luckily I don't eat crap food anymore. I'm 36 kg (80lbs) down, at BMI 24 and titrating down from the medication and it's going great!
Reddit comment · r/BiohackersHelped · completenullover 1 weeks
Quitting milk protein fixed my... IBS in about a week
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r/ChronicPain · Post
@Round_Soup_9633
What else can be done to help my IBS pain?
Hey guys. I’ve had constant chronic pain for over a year now preventing me from functioning and living a normal life. This happened from me being told by several doctors to take a ton of antibiotics when I got very sick with a virus that just wouldn’t go away. Welp, now this pain won’t and it’s robbed me of a successful life 😭. Luckily I don’t have any issues pooping. I’ve been tested for all the common suspects, had an endoscopy, tons of bloodwork… I’ve tried peppermint (works a little), ginger + turmeric (does nothing), other supplements. I’ve tried Amitriptyline, cyproheptadine and Gabapentin which made me feel miserable. So far CBD and its derivates (cbg, cbc, cbda cbga) work although only modulating my pain by a half a point. Ive followed the low fodmap diet for several months and it helps my pain by around 1-2 points compared to without. I did professional hypnotherapy (increased pain) and the whole sibo test thing with rifaxamin (had no sibo but was told to try rifaxamin anyways). I’m wondering what else is worth trying. I’ve heard things about Kratom (specifically the red strain), low dose naltrexone, Kanna and Kava, tens, dry needling, TB4 kbv and BPC 157 peptides, even biofeedback. I don’t know what to try and If I’m missing anything. Since I’ve tried gaba amy and cypro im now told by the doctors ive seen that nothing else can be done.
Reddit · r/ChronicPainHelped partially · mild
CBD and its derivates work although only modulating my pain by a half a point
@Round_Soup_9633·Reddit UserSource ↗
r/ChronicPain · Post
@Round_Soup_9633
What else can be done to help my IBS pain?
Hey guys. I’ve had constant chronic pain for over a year now preventing me from functioning and living a normal life. This happened from me being told by several doctors to take a ton of antibiotics when I got very sick with a virus that just wouldn’t go away. Welp, now this pain won’t and it’s robbed me of a successful life 😭. Luckily I don’t have any issues pooping. I’ve been tested for all the common suspects, had an endoscopy, tons of bloodwork… I’ve tried peppermint (works a little), ginger + turmeric (does nothing), other supplements. I’ve tried Amitriptyline, cyproheptadine and Gabapentin which made me feel miserable. So far CBD and its derivates (cbg, cbc, cbda cbga) work although only modulating my pain by a half a point. Ive followed the low fodmap diet for several months and it helps my pain by around 1-2 points compared to without. I did professional hypnotherapy (increased pain) and the whole sibo test thing with rifaxamin (had no sibo but was told to try rifaxamin anyways). I’m wondering what else is worth trying. I’ve heard things about Kratom (specifically the red strain), low dose naltrexone, Kanna and Kava, tens, dry needling, TB4 kbv and BPC 157 peptides, even biofeedback. I don’t know what to try and If I’m missing anything. Since I’ve tried gaba amy and cypro im now told by the doctors ive seen that nothing else can be done.
Reddit · r/ChronicPainHelped partially · mildlow FODMAP diet
low fodmap diet for several months and it helps my pain by around 1-2 points
@Round_Soup_9633·Reddit UserSource ↗
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@deadlyalliance8281
These questions are form anyone who well know Bpc-157! How long can the arginate form of this capsule sit in its bottle before it loses its potency? I only ask because I'm currently taking an acetate form of it but want to purchase an arginate form capsule because it's on sale. I have 56 days left of the acetate, then will take a 2 month break and then start the arginate form to see if there is any difference. It's primarily for gut issues(possible IBS-undiagnosed) but mainly for left distal bicep tendonitis from working out too hard and too long without deloading 2. Do you take bpc 157 arginate with or without food for best absorption? 3. What's the difference between acetate and arginate salt form of bpc 157?(what's better?)  And 4. do you HAVE to pair it with TD500 for best results or is it just as good on its own? Thank you
YouTube commentInconclusive
primarily for gut issues(possible IBS-undiagnosed)
@deadlyalliance8281·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@SuperBabybaby12345
Wow, I’m glad I came across your video so I just started 10 mg bpc157 30 units today is my 10 days I will start 20 units for 10 days now I haven’t seen an improvement yet. I have bowel disease bone disease osteosis process IBS is it OK to inject it in my stomach? I is it OK left one day right the next day
YouTube commentDidn't help10 mg BPC-157 30 units
I haven't seen an improvement yet
@SuperBabybaby12345·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
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@ikicaq
Will BPC 157 help with IBS? Started taking it orally a few days ago(500mcg a day) No improvement yet. Should I take 1000mcg a day?
YouTube commentDidn't help500mcg oral
No improvement yet
@ikicaq·Youtube CommenterSource ↗
r/ChronicPain · Post
@funnygirlhihi
I just got told my chronic pain/ibs is not a real disability by the institution who was supposed to protect me.
Sorry in advanced for this post, i’m crying while writing it so it’ll be all over the place. For a little bit of context, i was in a car accident 2 years ago and they had to rush me to the closest trauma center for a bowel resection. I lost 1,5m of intestines half of it being my colon. As you can imagine it has impacted my life tremendously. Losing almost half your colon especially during a traumatic event is so hard for your body. I haven’t been absorbing any liquid or bile properly ever since. I am in constant pain everyday. Anything i eat will upset my bowels and there’s no real medication that can help me. I’ve tried many and the side effects give me more pain. I also broke my back and my hand and my back has also been in pain everyday since my accident. I live in Québec and here we have a governmental institution (SAAQ) that will “protect” you in case of a road accident. So immediately after my hospitalization my family registered me on it as i would not be able to work for a while. Ever since that day i had to fight through every step of the process to be recognized and helped. To this day i can work a maximum of 6h at a time, 3 to 4 times a week and a often struggle to finish my shifts. It was not that much of a problem since the SAAQ was covering the difference of money that i was doing prior to my accident. Today the person in charge of my file called to announce me that i will no longer be supported by them and that they are closing my file. Their words were “Pain isn’t a real incapacity”. I am devastated and angry at the world right now as i already struggle to pay my rent and i don’t know that’ll ever be able to work full time again. Fuck ableism. Fuck people who drive recklessly.
Reddit · r/ChronicPainDidn't help
I am in constant pain everyday.
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@Itsbeenalongdecember
I never imagined I would have these problems. Not super confident they have identified the problem.
First, keeping in line with the subreddit rules, I have consulted a doctor and currently seeing a PT twice weekly. Somewhat of a vent here, more than anything. Initially I was diagnosed with just being extremely 'tight". I have horrible neck pain and back pain. Both favouring the left side of my body (in addition to sciatica in my left leg). The pain SEEMs to only be muscular. My PT seems to think I have extreme lack of mobility due to some heavy recurrent strains, and that is the problem. He also thinks my posture is what has caused a majority of the issues. GRANTED, my posture for my adult life has been AWFUL, so I don't doubt that this is a major contributing factor. But I also have been in a job that is very heavy impact and physically demanding for my entire adult life. I use to be an avid runner, but can no longer run because I will be in pain the next several days if I do. My neck and back hurt (ache) like all the time, I get tingling sensations on my left side when they get very aggravated. I can even feel it in my arm and shoulder (not sure if its because there is some nerve radiation, or a product of CONSTANTLY tensing my body to compensate and protect against straining my neck and back too much). Either way, I am just miserable at times. Going in again next week to ask for a re-evaluation with my doctor, maybe look at doing some MRIs to see if I have any disc problems. Naproxen and Ibuprophen help MAJORLY, but I have IBS so I am too damn scared to take them because they may flare up my stomach. I use to run half marathons and lift weights . . . now I hesitate to take in more than one bag of groceries at a time (not because I don't have the strength to do it, but because I am worried it will aggravate my neck). Alas, am I the only one feeling all this stuff simultaneously? Does anyone else have tandem back and neck problems? Can bad posture really cause all this? (All questions I will bring up with my doctor of course, but would be nice to hear other people who have ACTUALLY experienced it).
Reddit · r/ChronicPainDidn't help
I am too damn scared to take them because they may flare up my stomach
@Itsbeenalongdecember·Reddit UserSource ↗
r/depression · Post
@Ill-Judge-6851
Hear me out
Hello everyone, this is a "burner account" even though my actual account doesn't necessarily have anything memorable or identifiable. I do sincerely apologize for how long this turned out to be, if you do read this. I appreciate you, and if you didn't read this, I still appreciate you for even taking a gander. I am 31 years old, not that age matters but it plays a role in my world. I have been depressed for years, majority of my life I would say. I was abused physically as a child from my dad and sexually from my babysitters son. I never told anyone the latter, in a weird sick twisted way I liked it but I didn't at the same time. Such a weird concoction. Never really had friends growing up and had a stomach problem back then when IBS wasn't treatable that it ruin my social life as well. I wasn't mad about not having friends I mostly played games, watched anime and just geek out and to me that was fun. 2008 was somewhat of a turning point as we hit a recession and my mother unfortunately was one of the victims and we got evicted from our apartment. I remember one day so vividly I called my father for help at his gym that he owned at the time, I'll never forget the venom that dripped from his voice and how cold my blood ran when he said "don't you dare call this number again ever, you hear me?" I was like 11 or 12 at the time, his girlfriend worked with him who at the time knew what she was doing and plotted her way into the family and ruined it. He had a daughter with her.. I have a 15 year old half sister. Can you guys believe that? I mean I sure as shit can, he left that family as well unsurprisingly BUT he made sure he left her a job that makes 6 figures. We didn't get that, Im happy for them I guess or something along that line that everyone says. Anyways back to my sob story, had two serious boyfriends in my life, the first was my everything but hated towards the end because he cheated on me but great lesson and Im actually happy for him! He has two kids and everything he wanted. Then my second heart break or maybe my final not sure, he came around but holy crap did I not listen to my gut- she was screaming in the back of my mind saying " He is not over his ex (fiancé I might add) and he is showing you everything and you feel it he's not right for you, why aren't you listening ?!?" But for some reason, I needed him, I loved him and he was good for me but not really. Anyways, two years down the drain and I just knew something was wrong one day, he picked up his phone and said he is playing scrabble with the boys.. which made no sense cause he complained about that game and has dyslexia- or at least thats what he always said in the past when we did anything with spelling or whatever. So my brain said "check her instagram" low and behold they're following each other and got married a couple months later, Its funny... his mom his own damn mother started apologizing to me, not him but her. From what the family told me and what he told me in the start about her is that she cheated on him (funnily enough before we fell into a relationship I blurted out, somewhere down the line you're going to go back to her and its gonna hurt me.. but please stop talking bad about her, of course he said no he would never.. oh how the turn tables). I had to tell his mother to stop talking bad about her and her son is happy so just be patient and everything will be okay. Oddly enough on my birthday this past September his aunt messaged me (which is weird because why?) telling me she didn't get invited to the gender reveal and their excuse was they wanted something intimate but her whole side of the family is invited. I don't think I needed to know that, I didn't know how to respond to the message as she said she thinks it had something to do with me, I said it had nothing to do with me but you can unfollow me and maybe that will help? She said hell no lol. Before anyone says something like you should've unfollowed them from the start... you're right I should've but a part of me wanted to be in a family, a big beautiful family, thats loving and warm. See I didn't have that growing up, I yearn for it. Holidays get really depressing for me, the older I get the more I just sit with my sadness, I don't even think it's a diagnosis of chronically depressed... at this point, it's me- my soul. I like to explain it like Im naturally depressed, I get seasonally happy but for such a short period of time. I just quit my job, wasn't good for me, the medical field drained me. I think during Covid is just showed me how nasty the world can be, not just in the "ew they're coughing on everything" but the nasty that is so dark, the greed, the hate. I dont think people actually love people anymore. I stopped believing in God, or at least im trying to. How can someone so holy create so much pain. I will not get further into this as I know everyone has thoughts and feelings about it and they're heavy, but all those kids who died in Gaza.... they're kids, babies even, all those innocent lives. They love God but where was the protection? I didn't grow up being in a partial religion I should add.. I grew up Muslim but not really, then when my father left I didn't know what to follow, my mom is Christian so I just threw the towel and just believed in a or the God. Then I get into thoughts of where was God when I was getting hurt from the person thats supposed to protect me. Where was God when my Father was also beating up my mom? Where? I went off in a tangent there.. anyways I've been meaning to rid myself for a while. My body says otherwise, my mind is weak, I want to go. I want to end this. There are no happy thoughts. Life has not been good. Im not adding the whole story of course.. this post is longer than anticipated... I have no one, I dont have proper income even though I still have a part time job in retail, it's not much. Im in debt. I have no friends, I try to make them.. but it's hard. My thoughts win all the time, I want to go.. disappear.. There is a pit in my chest it's empty and I have turned meaner not just to me but to everyone. When I say meaner, I think people do not deserve the basic curtesy of human kindness anymore. No one says thank you or please anymore. People are rude, Im just one person but has anyone seen how bad humans affected animals? they're getting beaten, berated, killed for enjoyment. I wish I could help animals but im just one person who has nothing to her name. I do have pets.. I love them so much but I have failed my dog as he always ends up in the ER cause he gets into everything and anything lol.. I didn't train him right too.. he's very overreactive but he is still a puppy, I try training him and it is working sometimes but again- he is a puppy and he is trying to show dominance. I had three cats... I had to put one of babies down in August.. I still cry about him every night. I cant do it three more times.. ya know? There are no words to explain that, no amount of tears, no amount of hugs- nothing. I had my mom there with me. I love her to death too I must mention. I always vowed to rid myself if she leaves too... The thing is my father is back in the picture and she still goes back to him... I dont get it. I try to be respectful.. I do.. it's so hard. I did try therapy, psychiatrist.. the psych ward... got held in one for 3 days when I was in high school. Im just tired. Mentally tired. I do not want to live anymore- I dont want my life. I want to give my life to someone who DOES want to live, who HAS a purpose, who has people who love them. Kids who are legit.. kids.... I would give my life for theirs. I dont want to live at all.. They can have my time if that makes sense. Im there for people and people aren't there for me.. Im the issue I guess. Im not sure. But im tired of being lonely, I haven't really done anything bad but I do see bad people living great life and then innocent people dying young or barely surviving. I will find the means to kill myself, I'll sort out my babies first so they will be okay, they shouldn't suffer. My mom will suffer unfortunately but.. she shouldn't. If there is a God I hope he sheds some light and frees the weight if her heart as she deserves the world, not me. I the fucked up daughter who's 31 and didn't have a great life, didn't dabble in drugs, didn't do stupid stuff. Finished college, never found a footing or her path. I have nothing to show for myself. I am useless and a waste of space. I cant live like this. this sad, this loneliness, this painful yearning to be loved, to be wanted, to be seen. It's worse than hunger. Im sorry if this violates any rules.. It doesn't get better, it hasn't gotten better. I know I'm only 31 but I have been alive for a while already and all I've seen and felt is pain, sadness, lost, empty and everything not so fun. Im sorry if this triggers anyone, I do not want pity.. I just want ears or eyes to read it... I don't know what I'm asking for.. but apologize for the length. I hope everyone has a wonderful evening or day and please take care of yourself.
Reddit · r/depressionDidn't help
I had a stomach problem back then when IBS wasn't treatable
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